Lights on Me

Again, I have not blog for quite some time. Was thinking about our family today.I went back to Klang, to see my mum. Chatted with her awhile, then slept for the rest of the day. She's getting old for sure. Yet, she still have so much more to do for everyone. For me, I am staying away from family for years. And I tried my best to go back home as often as I can. Yesterday, saw my niece's pictures on Facebook. Funny how it became these days. The last time I saw her was in January, the day she was born. It has been more than 5 months now, and I didn't see her at all. What has become of our life? Thinking back into my childhood, Leonard and I were so close. We grew up together, and fight with each other all the time. That was the best time of life. Later in life, we grew apart. He pursue his career in music, while I went Sabah for 4 years. He got married, and moved to KL. I left the house to work in KL. We met occasionally at family functions. However, there are much less to...

I have a crazy idea, to start my own business. I spoke to few people, yet, others seems to be in their comfort zone. They want to stay put in their current situation. Or are they not confident enough with me. Am I the ambitious one here? As far as I know, I do not want to work for people in the future. I want to work for myself. Answering to myself. Taking off whenever I want. Current working condition has been really tough. Answering questions. Managing perceptions especially. It was a new term that I learned few months back. To progress, every thing is about management's perception towards you. We even have a panel for higher management to review on us yearly. If you fu**** something up, you are done. You will never ever be able to move on. I only wonder how did people manage to work there for donkey years. Don't they get tired or bored with the same people, same job? Occasionally, seeing people who did not work as hard as you get all the recognition they want. I know...

I got an iPad from My company! I can't believe it. While JC and DES is selling theirs, I'm keeping this one. For my own pleasure, and lending to Irfee and Kev for showing off. Thanks to 2010, for being such a good year. Thank God for giving me a such blessings. We reap what we sow, that's the theory ain't it? All I hope for this year is to keep the momentum going. Not hitting blue sky is ok, this is the foundation year for FSE. All I want is to keep on hitting target, have the patience to close those pipelines and be prepare for 2012. Whaddya think? Hehe, achievable? 12 more days and I'm moving! Excited? Definitely! Can't wait to move. ;)

I see the King of glory Coming on the clouds with fire The whole earth shakes, the whole earth shakes I see His love and mercy Washing over all our sin The people sing, the people sing Hosanna, hosanna Hosanna in the highest Hosanna in the highest I see a generation Rising up to take the place With selfless faith, with selfless faith I see a near revival Stirring as we pray and seek We're on our knees, we're on our knees Heal my heart and make it clean Open up my eyes to the things unseen Show me how to love like You have loved me Break my heart for what breaks Yours Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause As I walk from earth into eternity

1st 3 months of the year has passed. What have I done? Nothing much except work, work and more work. 3 more weeks, and I will be moving to a new place. So many things to do.. This is the list of things that I need to do in April: 1) Pack stuffs 2) Clean house 3) Watch F1 in Sepang 4) Dinner in Sage, consolation for being OSP 1st runner up 5) MSR 6) Hit target, for heaven sake!! 7) Tax Not bad for a 1st month of Q2.. Damn, I'm feeling really tired..

I didn't realize it has been so long since i last updated my blog. I was too caught up with work and the consequences is... I lost my direction in life. I have been working hard, driving from a customer to another daily. I even went deep inside a oil palm estate to look for one of my customer. It got scary as for kilometers, there was no one in sight. Not even a fly. These days, I am not sure where am I heading to. Really feel tired with work, to the point that I want to quit. The pressure from management, and from myself, I am not sure what am I doing. And I don't like the feeling of being aimless and headless. Somehow, I feel really lonely today. In relationship with friends, family, colleagues, or the special loved one, which I do not have at the moment, i failed most of the time. Am i too obnoxious, arrogant and egoistic, to admit to myself that I need people around me too? All I feel is loneliness. There were times on the road during the day, I just feel like calling...

Hmm... 1st, it was a dog. Now I have a Persian Cat to be given away... Thanks to Kenny who found it straying around his apartment. " Jie, can come and take the cat away ah....Don't have privacy la.." (Not the exact sentence, but thats what I understand). Kenny, what privacy you need from a cat? As if he/ she understands what you are doing. Maybe you should consider having it there to get rid of all the rats in your room. So now, later today, I need to go Cyberjaya, to get the cat, with the cat food and the litter box from Kenny and my mind is thinking now where to place this bugger..I need to find a home for it.. Pet shop perhaps? Somehow, what is it in store for me this year aside from being animal friendly? Since December, I have been getting really closely in touch with animals around me.. Monkeys, cows, dogs, dog and cat..What's next? A pig or a goat? "Meow, meow, meow...." How la... anyone wants a Persian Cat? FOC. Anyone??