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Me. The "Unwanted".

I was late for office for 2 days straight. Not purposely or without permission though. There's a good reason behind all this. Finally after 1 whole week in the dark, my room welcomes the lighting technology once again. My landlord finally send his workers to fix the bloody fluoroscent light in my room after few days of shouting and complaining through the phone.. It took less than 5 minutes to fix it, but it takes more than 2 days to convinced the man to get his ass down here to fix the thing.

Going back home today... 2 more months exactly and I'm outta this place. Relief? Probably. Time to move on.

Gonna be a busy weekend, meetings and friends outing, visiting relatives... Hope to meet Jules and Eric this week. Missed them alot. Lots to share with them. Surprisingly, Sandra is in KL now. Wished to see her, but time is just too short for me to do everything i want.

Something funny happening these past few days. Something very distracting. It made me think about some decisions i've made before. Regrets? I told myself not to. I convinced myself that I won't . Someone commented me as one of the 2 most important women in his present life.

He said "One is getting married, the other (referring to me) is not wanted by anyone."

That's a funny description about me and my single status. Am i really that "unwanted"? Haha.. Maybe..

Still young, lot's more to explore and experience. Surprisingly though that some of my classmates, schoolmates and even juniors (?!) are already happily married with children. Mom said that I'm too ambitious to settle down this early. Hmm..maybe. Or perhaps its better to accept the fact that I'm just really "unwanted" by anyone right now.

Wanted or not, life's gotta move on. No time to brag about how bad it is being single. Having more freedom emotionally and physically, it's really not a bad thing. Seems like I'm kinda content of being "unwanted" at the moment. Just hope that my gran won't be nagging me for not finding any boyfriends or better still, any potential grandson-in-law for her. The last time she went into this thing, she actually tried to play matchmaking and introduced me to some guy, whom are now happily married to another woman (that's what my gran told me few months back).

Another thing that bothers me now, why on earth did Leonard refuse to reply my e-mails? Fits damn well now. I'm officially "Sharon The Unwanted".

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