Welcome to My Life

This is how i felt these days.

Anti social.
Illogical.
Moody.
Exhausted.
Frustrated.
Blue.
Poor.
And... OLD.

At this point, i really believe that the light is out.
No more lights on me, cause I don't want any attention on me.
I just want to move out, and live a simple life.
At the age of 25 going to 26, I still worried how my family will feel if I told them I want a vacation. As I always remember, having a vacation is a waste of money, waste of time.
That's what they think.

At this moment too, I felt lonely for not having my partner around me.
Jealous and envy for those who have someone special, near by them.
I need love, and care. Not from everyone, but only from him.

Work has not been easy, thoughts of getting a new one, but still, I just got my confirmation.
I'm ambitious, I want much more from this fragile life.
I want to achieve things that people do not expect from me.
I know people around me, doesnt care for my existence, it doesn't matter at all.
Just want to live it through.

To anyone who reads this, welcome to my life.