Rethinking Spirituality

Source from Wikipedia, spirituality means "an ultimate reality or transcendent dimension of the world;^[1] an inner path enabling a person to discover the essence of his or her being, or the “deepest values and meanings by which people live.” ^[2]."

In my life, there was never a point where my parents or family teach me on religion. We are not a spiritual or religious family I believe. Being religious simply means having prayers on certain dates for certain occasion. But why? Why did we pray? Who are we praying to? What was the purpose of praying? No one seems to be able to answer all that. In fact, there are various points in my life that I thought of all religions and beliefs are just superstitious. Rules and morality codes that was created to mass control the people in various points of human history.

However, recently, there's an urge for me to start understanding the purpose of this life on Earth. My own life. I have the urge as well to finally find peace in my inner self from now on towards the end of my life. I guess the time has come to rethink about religions and spirituality again. I really need answers and guidance to go through this.

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