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累与泪

这是我第一次用中文写部落格。

最近想了好多事情。好想去爱一个人，却没有勇气了。他说，他需要自由，我却没办法接受。我对他是一厢情愿，他则到处留情。你若是问我为什么我还是那么执着，我想，爱是没办法理解的

他对我的关心，和对他身边的红颜知己没什么不同。他说他喜欢我，也喜欢其他人。

好几次，我提出做个了断。他却不停地挽留我。说他喜欢我，不想我们之间有座墙。而我，再次地相信他。或许，有一天， 他会认定我就是他最好的选择。现在想着，我这个人真的那么天真吗？

爱一个人是那么的痛苦吗？难道他不理解我的真心吗？

我哭了，他说我太敏感。
我生气，他说我无理取闹。

好辛苦啊。。。我到底是怎么样了？那么没自信吗？难道世界没其他男人了吗？为什么还要委屈自己，爱着一个不想爱我的人呢？他说，我应该出去认识其他人。也许我会遇见一个更好的。而我却顽固地守着他。心里流着血，眼里也一直不断地流着泪。

我每天祈祷，祈求我有勇气放下这段还没开始的感情。

我好累好累。。神啊，你听到了我的祈祷吗？

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