Somehow, I wasn't feeling as happy as I wanted.

I thought it was the job. Which I agreed partially, but there's more to it. Wonder what does it take to lead a happy life.

Lately, there's lots of things that goes through my mind. Many things has happened against my will. Against my favor. And day by day, I wonder what was the purpose of living at all. In fact, the suicidal thoughts came back peeking into my life without me realizing it.

So mundane, so boring, so lifeless.

I wish I have my car now, so that I can just drive out from the town and spend a night next to a beach. I don't need anyone to go with me.

All I need is a time out. Time out from people, time out from work, time out from myself.