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Greed...a natural defect.

God, if I can't have what I want, let me want what I have. ~ Anonymous prayer

This is an interesting quote that i'll like to share. Never in my life that i've prayed to God, I prayed for contentment in everything that i have in my life. I was never satisfy with what i have, and it couldn't be cure until this moment that i'm typing.

Human greed can never be satisfy. I'm not exaggerating because it's true. Sadly, it's a natural defect that we were born with.

Parent's will never be satisfied with their children...
Children will always want more freedom from their parents...
Husbands will always think their wives should be more beautiful...
Wives will always think that their husbands should be more wealthier than suppose...
People will always think that they deserve better...
More money, more success, more enjoyment, more, more, more.....!


That's human. Apparently, that's me too.

I was never content with what i have, never. I keep questioning myself " Why am i facing this?", "Why is this happening to me?", "Why can't it be the way i wanted it to be?".

Yes, all the countless "whys" that will never satisifed my hunger for its answers. Answers that might not made any changes to my already reasonable good life.

We were taught from young to understand that we shall not greed. It's the basic moral concept that we learned at home, at schools, at work, at life...
But somehow, we couldn't understand the meaning, we could never learn not to greed.. Irony isn't it?

We despised the acts of greed shown by others, but yet, do we hate ourselves for acting it out?

Well, i guess that's life. Full of contradictions and hypocrism. And that includes myself.

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