Lights on Me

One night, my Ah Yee (My Aunt, mum's sister) said to me: "Ah Ling ah, your nose is big and fleshy. It indicates that you will be having a good life in the future." Literally means that I will earn big bucks in the future. Yay! Money come money come... "But your nostrils can see the sky (whatever it means) , it means you are like me! Earn big and spend big. But no worries, you won't get poor." Haha, so I can spend whatever I want from now on?? "You have a round face, lots of bak (means meat or flesh in Hokkien), indicates that you will get early recognition from your boss. Hmm, not bad." Yeah, not bad huh. Should tell my boss and ask for a raise soon! " Your eyebrows are quite nice. Dark and long. It means you will get a good husband in the future. But... wait , where did u get this scar?? Haiya, its not that good la like that. But again the scar not that big, shouldn't be a problem la I think. Hm.." So is it good or not??! How come ...

How I wish to turn back time and have the happy things in life again. Missing so much of the past.. I miss... .. being naive.. .. the family I used to have.. .. my friends.. .. the times in uni.. .. afternoon at Coffee Bean with ice-blended mocha & a good book.. .. gazing at the stars from my room while listening to Frank Sinatra.. .. having the moonlight shone through the window onto my bed.. .. weekend outings on the beautiful islands in KK.. .. the sunsets and the ocean breeze.. .. movie outings with friends.. .. window shopping on weekends.. .. midnight chat with friends.. .. Mido and his hugs.. How much I've lost in these past 2 years. Looking at this list makes me wonder when I will have the opportunity to be happy again.. sigh