Lights on Me

Had a short simple trip to Melaka last week. Wonderful place, good food. :)

7.30pm. That's my promises to my bosses. I will leave office daily the latest by 7.30pm. And so far, how did I score? 2 days straight, back home early, which does not translate to sleeping and resting early. Sometimes, I wonder how has my life turn out to be. Who would even wonder I will become a saleswoman? Not even myself or my mum. Still, I hope I can continue studying again. Hope it will be soon.

Later today, we will be touring the SZB gateway. 1 more day, another typical report day.. sigh. getting tired to update. 2 more days, another wedding to attend. 3 more days, our very own bowling tournament... 4 more days, another Monday, another new week...nearer to the end of April. Time is running out to hit target. Day in day out, but when on earth will I take my day off...? I wonder.

3 days of customer visits in Johor. Lots of story to tell, but well, let me rest today. Time to sleep. Still gotta work in the morning. Workaholic again. :)

It's 2:46 am now.. yet I'm still awake. Editing a thesis for a Masters student. . sigh.. getting bored and tired. 1 & 1/2 chapter to go. Last night, I went to office. It was a Sunday night, where you are suppose to enjoy the final moments of the weekend, and where was I? In the office, replying emails. Time is just running out and not enough for me to settle all the issues. It's been a year and 4 months, and yet, I can't let go of my work. I can't depend on my team-mates. What am I? A superwoman? Or just a work-craze freak? Sigh, I really dunno. I'm worried for the next 3 days. I will be away for customers visit, with no access to my emails. Perhaps I should get a Blackberry and connect my emails to my phone. I know if I do that, I will hate myself for life. Sharon, get a life. Life is really much more than this.

Few minutes ago... I thought about my job. This coming July and it will be my 2nd year. How long more do I want to stay here, I wonder? 1, 2, 3 years... or till I retired? Someone told me once, leave your job when you are on the top of your game. Now, I feel that way. 2 days back, my manager asked me, whether he's lucky to have a hard working staff like me, or is he a slave-driver. I work from 8am - 10 pm almost daily. That's 14 hours a day, 70 hours per week. Do I love this job? I am enjoying it as long as I'm earning money. That's pretty true for anyone, I presume. But is money everything in life? I know, it is not everything, but it's pretty much the main thing in my current life. 24 working days this month, and I close the month high above target. My target for this year is to close monthly at least 10% above target. I did more than that for the past 3 months. Maybe, I was just lucky. Maybe, I'm harvesting on the hard work that I have put in since last year.