Work without life.

Work seems to take most of my time in life. Many said to me, don't get too attached with my job. Work is endless. If you ever find one day that you don't have any work to do, that will be the day you have to leave your job.

Yet, I don't have any other life except my job. Being new in the team pressures me more to perform as I'm really a 'kiasu'. Being at the bottom for 1st few months, really push me to move forward. Indeed last month, I found some relief in my job. But, every month will be a new challenge. This is my true nature.

Many times I thought, why am I in this line of career. What happened to my studies? My music? My passion? Day in day out, sometimes, I dread going to work. But once I started, I don't look back at all.

So many things to do. I wonder when will I be able to let go. Let go of my job, let go of my crazy hectic life. Let go of my 'kiasu'ness.

When will I dare to make that change in life? I really don't know.

Weekend life..

Wish to go for a cinema. Doesn't matter if I need to go alone.

Wish to go to the bookstore, Borders, Kinokuniya, MPH, or even Popular... I just need some knowledge juice for my hungry brain.

Wish I am still in the bed... watching all my episodes of downloaded House, CSI, The Simpsons...

Wish I am out in the park, joggin with my MP3 Players.. have some new good workout songs lately..

Wish to have a short vacation.. somewhere far from city, far from house, far from work...

Wish to have the money enough to splurge for myself....

Maybe a trip to the Zoo again.. parks.. garden... beach..

Or maybe a just spending time with a good book and a good cup of coffee...

And yet, where I am??

At 3.06pm , 09 May 2009, Saturday......... I'm still at the f****** office! Blehs!~

Next Plane Home - Daniel Powter

I woke up early to baby blue eyes from afar whoah whoah
And when the sun comes through lights you like the angel you are whoah whoah
I know I do you wrong when I'm with you I've been gone

With every season change, it looks the same, November to June whoah whoah
And don't these empty streets skip a beat the flowers don't bloom whoah whoah

I can't believe I missed your birthday again
And I wanna come back but I just don't know when now

And I'm so lonely your not here with me
That's why I'm gonna be on the next plane home
The road that never ends around the bend I see your smile whoah whoah
I'd swim acorss the sea to be with you for a while whoah whoah
Cos I've made a life of been gone
Now the way that I feel is just that I don't belong here

And I'm so lonely you're not here with me
That's why I'm gonna be on the next plane home
And you're, you're the only face I wanna see
That's why I'm gonna be on the next plane home

Stand around try to make every moment
And be somebody yeah anybody
It seems the whole world is taking me over
I need somebody to help me get back to you

And I've always been a million miles away
But things are gonna change
I just wanna come home

And you're, you're the only face I wanna see
That's why I gonna be on the next plane home
Yeah I'm taking the next plane home
Now I'm getting the next plane home
Now I'm taking the next plane home

* I dunno why this song makes me feel happy. Perhaps I'm looking for a place that I can call home. A place where I feel like going back to no matter where I am.