Lights on Me

Woke up really early today. B woke me up at 5.45am. Managed to reach office at 6am. Was really worried about my shipment through out the night. But with my colleague in Labuan, everything turn out fine today. Customer was happy, I am relieved. It turn out that the email was sent to the Ops. No one dares to answer, but there was a reply. Feeling a lil bit disappointed with the reply, as it still indicates that I was at fault in some way. But well, as long as we get the job done. Left office early, met Sandz at Tropicana and had my first real meal of the day. Nice one indeed. Lots of catch up, reliving our times back in Uni. How I miss KK, my dorm room, and uni life altogether. Time really flies. As Sandz put it, 2 more years and we have stepped into 10 years of knowing each other. Somehow, I am feeling really old now. :) But I really treasure this friendship through out these years. Well, its another day. Need to sleep now, hope I can wake up early again and save my money on the blood...

Had a distressful day. So disappointed with many many people. Even to myself. Wish I have more time to settle all this problem. As a result, I wrote a long complain email to both my bosses. Its not that I wanted to lash out on someone or some people. Rather, it was just to release my stress and anger. Hope they didn't get a shock when they see the email tomorrow morning. Nevertheless, thanks to few colleagues who actually help, even though they were on MC. Life seems so much easier with them around. Moreover, big shipment tomorrow. Really excited :)

Been watching loads of Chinese movies during the weekend. The list goes: 1) Ip Man 1 2) Ip Man 2 3) Mulan - not the cartoon, but the movie version. starring Vicky Zhao. 4) Red Cliff 1 - still watching.. interesting stuff, fantastic battle scene. :) So far so good. Enjoying every bits of it.

A small conversation with boss before we left office today. "Seniority doesn't mean anything here, performance does." He said. "If you are not ready to take the leap, who in your team that qualifies for it?" He asked. "If the vacancy comes in the next 2 or 3 months, do you want to grab it?" He suggested. "I'll think about it." I said.

Life is very fragile. Our life were created in a way that, without certain elements like air and water and food, we will all die. Today, my granduncle passed away at the age of 71 years. Yes, it's not that we were very close but still, I really feel the loss. I hugged my devastated grandaunt, for the second time in my life. Although there was a lot of misunderstanding between all of us, but when death stares at us, we put down the differences. I embrace her pain, feeling her loss and despair. Moreover, they have been married for more than 40 years by now, or perhaps may have even reached the golden number 50. I saw him for the very last time. I know I will not be able to make it for the funeral. How I missed him already. For my gran, I think she is still in shock. Regretting for not giving in lots of ways. My other grand uncle whom has not spoken a word since my great grandmother left us 20 years ago, has finally spoke to my gran again today. I sensed a feeling of relief and happin...