Lights on Me

I woke up early to baby blue eyes from afar whoah whoah And when the sun comes through lights you like the angel you are whoah whoah I know I do you wrong when I'm with you I've been gone With every season change, it looks the same, November to June whoah whoah And don't these empty streets skip a beat the flowers don't bloom whoah whoah I can't believe I missed your birthday again And I wanna come back but I just don't know when now And I'm so lonely your not here with me That's why I'm gonna be on the next plane home The road that never ends around the bend I see your smile whoah whoah I'd swim acorss the sea to be with you for a while whoah whoah Cos I've made a life of been gone Now the way that I feel is just that I don't belong here And I'm so lonely you're not here with me That's why I'm gonna be on the next plane home And you're, you're the only face I wanna see That's why I'm gonna be on the next p...

Life has been a mess for the past whole week. Juggling between work and family is not my strength. I certainly missed mum being around. He just lost his respect from all his children. He knew it before and he definitely knows it now. But he's just too arrogant to come back and admit that it's his fault that things turn out so badly. I confronted him for his actions last night. I have never raised my voice against him, but yesterday, it's just really unbearable. If I knew what happened later after I left, I would have screamed my lungs out and bring my brothers along with me. Last night, what you did is plainly stupid. Stupid, for leaving your family behind. Stupid, for seeking for comfort from others while your wife is here waiting at home. Stupid, for not caring over your children. Stupid, for ignoring your responsibility as a son, a husband and a father. You have definitely lost what you had all this while. All because of your ego, arrogance and stupidity.

Mum had a stroke last Tuesday. It was really a sudden call.. perhaps it's a sign for her to opt for retirement. At 56, she seems really strong and healthy, but things are not always what we wanted. Mum's illness has been the focus for all of us for the past few week. I cried so many times, fearing that I might lose her. I have not even take care of her as what I have hope for. Times has been really chaotic for the past whole week. Juggling my work, and managing my brothers and family matters, I felt so tired and exhausted. Few times when I drove to work from Klang early in the morning, I almost got into accident. I really have no choice, but to ask Dad to come home and help. He came back, but it's hard to accept him back. My brothers were angry at him, I am angry at him. Suppose that he came back earlier and sort things out with mum, perhaps mum won't get struck by this sudden stroke. How life changes in a moment. How fragile us humans in the eyes of God. How worthless ...

Started fresh today. I had a good vibe since morning, mainly due to my 40 minuted jogging I guess. Finally, I've made the first step. I woke up early today, to see my running shoes, clean and white, lying just beside the door. A sure reminder to make me walk to the park and start my day. My Sony Walkman NWZ-B133F.. good companion for jogging. Along I pickup my Sony Walkman , which I have downloaded some songs for jogging, I walked to the park just outside the apartment. Although it's almost 8pm. but still, no one was there. There used to be a group of middle aged ladies dancing around the court, wonder where they are today...? As the crowd grows around the park, I decided to head back to the apartment and get my car. I have planned to eat 'you char kuey' today and there's a vendor near the sports complex near by. Bought 5 of it, 2 long ones, one with red beans, one round one but empty ( this is delicious!) and the one with glutinous rice. I can't even wait to r...

Simple editing: Focal & Polaroid Found this online picture editing website Picnik where you can just put effects on your pictures without any hassle. You can even create a simple 2-4 picture collage (or pay $24.95 for more options). Simple photo collage. It's simple to use and the layout of the website is just so cool! At least for someone like me that do not know how to use Photoshop. Best thing of all, it's free and you don't have to download any softwares or tools. Just edit online and save it in your PC. Here's the URL link: http://www.picnik.com/app#/home/welcome

I've just watched one of the most terrifying documentaries so far.. Ghosts of Rwanda, a 2004 year production by PBS to recount the 100-days terror of Rwandan Genocide in 1994. Once could argue how the numbers of people being massacred was far more less than the Holocaust or the genocide by the Khmer regime. But the truth is within the 100 days, humanity literally torn apart by our selfishness, and most leaders in the world are just ignoring the true fact of evil. While it does not recount the events preceding to the genocide, the documentary capture the whole genocide and how the community of the world reacts to it... simply by DOING NOTHING. Sadly, even UN pulled out the humanity aid and peacekeepers and only a few were left to save the helpless Tutsis. One of the most grueling image that I saw was the scene that was captured at a church. Thousands of corpse were piled up against the wall of the church and below the statue of Jesus Christ opening up his hands looking down at a si...