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Ramblings..

Mum had a stroke last Tuesday. It was really a sudden call.. perhaps it's a sign for her to opt for retirement. At 56, she seems really strong and healthy, but things are not always what we wanted. Mum's illness has been the focus for all of us for the past few week. I cried so many times, fearing that I might lose her. I have not even take care of her as what I have hope for.

Times has been really chaotic for the past whole week. Juggling my work, and managing my brothers and family matters, I felt so tired and exhausted. Few times when I drove to work from Klang early in the morning, I almost got into accident. I really have no choice, but to ask Dad to come home and help.

He came back, but it's hard to accept him back. My brothers were angry at him, I am angry at him. Suppose that he came back earlier and sort things out with mum, perhaps mum won't get struck by this sudden stroke.

How life changes in a moment. How fragile us humans in the eyes of God. How worthless our life in the midst of His creation.

I know I'm just rambling here. I'm really just releasing some tension through my simple words. And hope that unfortunate events will eventually end in my life. And for the first time in so many years, let us have our family and happiness back.

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