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New month begins..

Few minutes ago... I thought about my job. This coming July and it will be my 2nd year. How long more do I want to stay here, I wonder? 1, 2, 3 years... or till I retired?

Someone told me once, leave your job when you are on the top of your game. Now, I feel that way. 2 days back, my manager asked me, whether he's lucky to have a hard working staff like me, or is he a slave-driver. I work from 8am - 10 pm almost daily. That's 14 hours a day, 70 hours per week. Do I love this job? I am enjoying it as long as I'm earning money. That's pretty true for anyone, I presume. But is money everything in life? I know, it is not everything, but it's pretty much the main thing in my current life.

24 working days this month, and I close the month high above target. My target for this year is to close monthly at least 10% above target. I did more than that for the past 3 months. Maybe, I was just lucky. Maybe, I'm harvesting on the hard work that I have put in since last year. Maybe, I am doing the things right after all. I never believe that I am a sales person. Yet I am doing good so far. In fact, it came as an surprise to everyone from my managers to my colleagues.

I don't like to persuade anyone to buy things. Yet my customers are persuaded to do business with us. I believe that everyone has their own choice, yet customers said that I was the reason they continue using our service. I am really grateful when my customers encourage me to go on. Doing what I do best at this moment.

Sometimes, I ask myself, do I ever get tired? Exhausted? Burnt-out? I do. I really do. Mum knows, B knows. I know. But life has to go on no matter what. I need the money to live on, to get my house eventually. No one is going to sponsor on anything. I have to be independent for myself and for others around me. People look up to me. My brothers look up to me.

Today, I am exhausted. But I felt relieved in some way. Last month ended on a high-note, I'm going for customer visit next week, GA coming next Friday. But yet, I am feeling a little bit empty. Such a confusing state of mind.



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The Story Teller said…
Shar - :) I know how it feels perfectly.

rest your feet and continue the journey after. hugs!
3:28 PM
deaflisteners said…
Sandz, thanks.

Am going to rest after this. Go for a vacation or something. I think I deserve this. :)
2:46 AM
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