I didn't realize it has been so long since i last updated my blog. I was too caught up with work and the consequences is... I lost my direction in life.
I have been working hard, driving from a customer to another daily. I even went deep inside a oil palm estate to look for one of my customer. It got scary as for kilometers, there was no one in sight. Not even a fly.
These days, I am not sure where am I heading to. Really feel tired with work, to the point that I want to quit. The pressure from management, and from myself, I am not sure what am I doing. And I don't like the feeling of being aimless and headless.
Somehow, I feel really lonely today. In relationship with friends, family, colleagues, or the special loved one, which I do not have at the moment, i failed most of the time. Am i too obnoxious, arrogant and egoistic, to admit to myself that I need people around me too? All I feel is loneliness. There were times on the road during the day, I just feel like calling someone to talk. Yet when I browse through my phonebook, I found no one that I can call. What has become of me these days? I wonder myself.
Anyhow, I have to sleep now. Few more hours, and I am going to Broga Hill. No idea what to expect. But I guess it is a good change for once. At least before Sunday comes and I have to face my customer to apologize... (I will write about this next time)..
All rite, adios!
I have been working hard, driving from a customer to another daily. I even went deep inside a oil palm estate to look for one of my customer. It got scary as for kilometers, there was no one in sight. Not even a fly.
These days, I am not sure where am I heading to. Really feel tired with work, to the point that I want to quit. The pressure from management, and from myself, I am not sure what am I doing. And I don't like the feeling of being aimless and headless.
Somehow, I feel really lonely today. In relationship with friends, family, colleagues, or the special loved one, which I do not have at the moment, i failed most of the time. Am i too obnoxious, arrogant and egoistic, to admit to myself that I need people around me too? All I feel is loneliness. There were times on the road during the day, I just feel like calling someone to talk. Yet when I browse through my phonebook, I found no one that I can call. What has become of me these days? I wonder myself.
Anyhow, I have to sleep now. Few more hours, and I am going to Broga Hill. No idea what to expect. But I guess it is a good change for once. At least before Sunday comes and I have to face my customer to apologize... (I will write about this next time)..
All rite, adios!
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