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Again, I have not blog for quite some time.

Was thinking about our family today.I went back to Klang, to see my mum. Chatted with her awhile, then slept for the rest of the day. She's getting old for sure. Yet, she still have so much more to do for everyone. For me, I am staying away from family for years. And I tried my best to go back home as often as I can.

Yesterday, saw my niece's pictures on Facebook. Funny how it became these days. The last time I saw her was in January, the day she was born. It has been more than 5 months now, and I didn't see her at all. What has become of our life? Thinking back into my childhood, Leonard and I were so close. We grew up together, and fight with each other all the time. That was the best time of life. Later in life, we grew apart. He pursue his career in music, while I went Sabah for 4 years. He got married, and moved to KL. I left the house to work in KL. We met occasionally at family functions. However, there are much less to talk about these days.

With Kenny and Paul, our age gap is too big and not able to communicate well. Just like that, I felt we are growing away from each other every day. The only thing that keep us together is mum apparently. She's the only reason for us to come back as family. This eventually make more afraid of losing mum one day. Wonder what would happen after she is gone?

I really hope that one day, things will change. At least for us siblings to look out for each other. Keeping in touch via phone or mail, visiting each other whenever we can. I believed that is what mum wants too.

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