Lights on Me

I have not been training for the past few days due to muscle pain in both calves. Note to myself, not to push too much when my body is not ready As I train for the past few weeks, I understand my body better, knowing which set of muscles that needed more push and training and the ones that has improved.  4 days to go for my 1st official run and with the current shape, I will not be able to run for 10km continuously. But I think I can finish the run in less than 2.5 hours. Not a big goal it is, but I'm not a fit person to start off.  Running is really something that seems easy but not in reality. Pain and breathlessness are always demotivating my running or perhaps to every runner. And to be honest, it takes a strong mind to endure the pain and push you forward to finish the distance. With every run, I tend to understand more on the basics of proper running. Follow the rules or you will suffer, I am told. Running too much on your heel, your knees will be heavily impa...

10 days more to my first 10km. I'm intimidated and scared. but there's no turning back from here.  My goal for this run is simple: Not to finish last.  This time, its different from Neon Run. Neon run is more like a church activity while this run, there's lots of serious runners racing to win. 10km is like a giant leap from the normal run I have been doing. As my body starting to adapt slowly to the oxygen deprived state of the lungs, I am still fearing the 10km mark. I'm unsure whether my body can cope with the straining during the course. As to date, I have yet to run that far in my life.  I am trying my best to train as often as I can. But I have to admit there's so much distraction going on in my life that I often skipped training. Dota2 is one of it (New found interest since Ti3). Hence, today, I had only 30 mins in the gym, and I ran as fast as I could. Stats: Distance : 2.22 km Time : 21:21 mins Calories Burnt: 200 calories Not...

Putrajaya Marathon Night Run 2013 Bib.  Got my bib for Putrajaya Night Marathon 2013 today! I'm super excited and fluorescent orange it is. Guess they are really concerned that we will get  lost while running. Bib came with map route, some vouchers and advertisement of running accessories.. (And I thought I only need a pair of running shoes and my feet to run.). This includes 2nd Brooks voucher this year,  should save money to invest in a pair of good running shoes. Anyway, 11 more days to go.. Been doing 4km per session for the past few days after stopping for so long. Mainly because of the post-effect of Bukit Tabur hike which causing my quadriceps, hamstring and gluteal (butt muscle) to ached so much for 3 days. That, I will leave it for another day (I'm proud of myself). Feeling excited, yet intimidated. Not that I'm into winning, but my main goal, is not to finish last. Achievable? Cross my fingers, and hope for the best! Just keep running, just keep run...

For quite some time, I had a burden in my heart, which had crushed me into pieces, and I didn't know how to pick myself up and survive through it. Despite the pain, I learned to convince myself that I will be fine, but my life has never been the same from the day onwards.Upon being betrayed and lies upon lies, I can only conclude that I was still a naive person in many situations despite portraying myself as someone who's strong and independent. It's a façade that I choose to portray as the people around me needed me more than ever. I had to be strong for my mum and my brothers.  Slowly, my heart has become cold, and lifeless. I worked every day, on weekends on public holidays, perhaps trying to find things to keep myself busy. I'm constantly drained out physically and emotionally. I start to have series of bipolar emotions where there are days, that I will be extreme high and happy, and right after that, I will just sit down in my room and started crying. without...