Lights on Me

How can working life be so complicated I wonder? When you work well, or better than expected, people tend to gossip bout how you get the job at the 1st place. I do not find much trouble working with people who are less educated, but working as hard as the others. The most problems you'll encounter is from the people who sees you as a threat. With the weird design of our office plan, I couldn't help but skeptical that people are watching your every move. What you do, what you talk or discuss, who are you meeting with.. Honestly, they do not have a life?? Woman especially are a weird species (mind myself, I'm part of the colony as well). They are constantly sniffing out your background, trying to find loosen knots. Wouldn't it be better for them to spend their time on something else.... like their work?! My performance so far has been gaining positive feedback from my manager. However, too many woman make the working environment a lil bit too messy to work in. Weird cases...

I am an aunty! My niece is born today, thanks to my sis-in-law who has been carrying her for the past 7 months. The baby is still in the incubator, but she's strong, and beautiful. Can't help thinking of getting one myself.. Everyone is happy, especially the new parents. Well, congrats Leonard and Swan! Hope to get a picture of her soon!

Being the only sister to 3 brothers is tougher than I would ever imagine. Being the eldest of remaining siblings in the house is gruesome. Being a daughter and a grandaughter to people who keep pulling you to their side after arguing with each other is frustrating. Being a girl who's trying to survive in the Man's world is stressful. Being a sane person who's constantly worried bout goin insane, well is insane. Being myself is just too exhausting.

Sent a text message to Leonard today. You might wonder, what's so special bout it? It's special because it's rare. I needed someone to listen to me this morning. Leonard is the only choice in this case. As usual, I woke up early to catch the bus down to Seremban. Breakfast wasn't a happy occassion today. Gran complaint the usual stuffs. But something came into me, I exploded and literally blasted out everyone in the house which include my granny and mum. One logical explanation... I'm sick of being the mediator to solve every single tiny bit of household issues. It's really unexpected to everyone, even myself. Leonard asked me to be patient. Few more months and I'll be out from the house. To me, it's still a long way to go. I'm burdened by everyone's problem. Yes it's family, but does it have to be this way? Everyone letting go responsibiity while I'm supposed to be the person to solve everything? Nowadays, even Mum becomes unreasonable t...

It took me a week before I can have time to blog. Serious! Time flies.. I've been working for almost a month now. Well days are getting tougher as my manager keep on reminding me. But at least, work is not boring because I'm learning new things everyday. The only downside for working is I don't have time to relax and rewind. I don't even talk much to my family since I started working. Cant stop wondering whether this is a common thing among workers? Or am I becoming a workaholic? Family hasn't complain but I felt bad for neglecting them. I brought back work from office everynight for the past whole week. And they let me do my stuffs without bothering me while i work myself up to 3am.. Sigh, I think I should find a balance point between my career and family. Damn, this is exhausting!