Home, somewhere, someplace, but where?

What is a home?

A place to stay, a place to live and a place when you feel welcomed and safe all the time??

Perhaps, I'm a pessimist. I spend more time on my work more than anything in my life. Life after work, I supposed, should be warm and comforting. With gaining respect from my parents and my family, that I earn, and get my own car finally, by myself.

Maybe I'm ultra-sensitive. I felt left out from my own family. Is it because of the baby? I doubted it. If it is, it's just an excuse. I have to move out from this house, which I assumed still my 'HOME'.

No one to talk to, no one to listen. Better to move out and stay away. So tired.

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Disabled again..

Today.. is another sad day for me. They just disabled "e-messenger", which ended my pleasure of keeping in touch with friends lately. Sigh.. exactly 14 more days, and I'll be out. Just have to be patient. Had a long talk with my boss. Many things that we've talked through and I appreciate his acceptance over my rather harsh comment. We're more like friends now, rather than him being my boss, or me being his subordinate. Frankly, it's been a long 5 1/2 half months. Unhappy i may seem, but i do learn alot while working here. Strangely, i think i might even missed this place..

School No Fun!

"So, how many homeworks you have today?" "8." "How many done?" "4 more to go, with a spelling tomorrow and a dictation on Friday." "How are you doing today?" Face slammed to the pillow on the floor... "T...i...r....e...d...." Thats the usual conversation little Paul and I have everyday after school. 6, 7, sometimes 10 homeworks per day. Thats what little Paul is having everyday. Today, he cried over the tiredness of having to do so many work. Although he's more on the sensitive side, but still, is this how our education system deal with our kids? And, today, he brought a time table for examination through out the year, which the 1st exam will start on 13th February, 5 days before Chinese New Year. (WTF!!) That means he has to start studying the not-so-familiar words. 22 days into the new year, and he has to worried bout doing good in his exam. What's wrong with the teachers, school and the Ministry of Education itself?...

Stupidity

Life has been a mess for the past whole week. Juggling between work and family is not my strength. I certainly missed mum being around. He just lost his respect from all his children. He knew it before and he definitely knows it now. But he's just too arrogant to come back and admit that it's his fault that things turn out so badly. I confronted him for his actions last night. I have never raised my voice against him, but yesterday, it's just really unbearable. If I knew what happened later after I left, I would have screamed my lungs out and bring my brothers along with me. Last night, what you did is plainly stupid. Stupid, for leaving your family behind. Stupid, for seeking for comfort from others while your wife is here waiting at home. Stupid, for not caring over your children. Stupid, for ignoring your responsibility as a son, a husband and a father. You have definitely lost what you had all this while. All because of your ego, arrogance and stupidity.

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