Lights on Me

-by Alicia Keys (from the album "As I Am") If I had no more time No more time left to be here Would you cherish what we had? Was I everything that you were looking for If I couldn’t feel your touch And no longer were you with me I’d be wishing you were here To be everything that I’ve been looking for I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So every time you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you’ll never see me again Every time you touch me Touch me like this is the last time Promise that you’ll love me Love me like you’ll never see me again How many really know wh...

Know about the pink elephant story? Try not to imagine a Pink Elephant. What do u imagine now? It's a pink elephant no doubt. Apparently our brain is quite straightforward. The rational is, the more you try to avoid thinking about something, the more you would think about it. There are certain things that I try to block out from my brain. A person, smoking, and being depressive about work. Three things that I'm trying to forget, and the same three that keep on popping up. Wonder how to forget about things? Our memory is really not a merciful one. The happiness in life that we tried to remember all the time, it can easily be forgotten. Life love to play jokes on us, or at least, on me. Life changes so much for the past 2 weeks. In these past 2 weeks, I suddenly realized how much my mum has grow old. Seeing the wrinkle on her face, I can't remember when did it all happen in the first place. I couldn't find a trace of image when her face are still line less. I tried really...

How does it feel when you fell for someone, and that someone told you that he had a new gf? It sucks. As a friend, I'm still trying to act cool, as if nothing happens. It hurts damn bad actually. But, as a friend, I should be happy for him isn't it? The only problem is I'm not a saint. I'm a human being, and for worse, a female species of Homo sapiens . THAT is the main problem. I'm accepting, but being hurt badly, I don't know how to keep on going and be a friend. Hang out together? Introduce her to me? My heart is really reluctant, but my pride make the stupidest decision in my life. I said 'OK'. Trying to be nice isn't everything, I discover. While I was waiting for his reply on the phone, he was having some fun with his new gf. I would be a big fat liar to say that I'm ok with everything. I have to be, to make sure he's not feeling awkward to me. And I have to meet her as well, as a request from him. As a proof we are still 'friends...