The week has come to an end..

What a week. Enjoyed so much at to be at home with mum, gran and Paul.

At times, I feel really guilty for not spending much time with them. Guess, that's why I tried staying longer these days. Just to chat with them. I really feel that time is running out and to be honest, I'm afraid that I will regret if I do not start now.

Gran's health is deteriorating these days. After 30 years of staying together, it seems like mum and Gran has come to an understanding. To give up on something and to move on with light. Perhaps, when you are lost and lost hope, the next best thing is to depend on the physically nearest person to you. After years and years of argument and dislike, they do not have choice but to maintain a good relationship. It's always the better option to make peace rather than make war. Thanks Mum and Gran for giving us the love and warmth all this while.

As for the other person, it all end with the same phrase that I posted on FB.

" Never make a promise that you do not intend to keep. It hurts more than not making any promise."

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