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Troubled Mind

Lately, I am becoming an angry person. I barely feel happy or satisfied with my life.

Things that I observed around me, just proves that there's no equality in life. Never. Be it at work, family or friends.

Being hardworking doesn't get you anywhere, if you do not know how to make connections.

I made a big decision lately to stay at where I am. My family doesn't know why or what make me changed my mind. I have to be here, I assumed. At least, they will feel happier to have me running the errands which my brother won't be able to do so.

Suddenly, I blame everything on my dad. Its because of him that I am in this confused state. It's because of him that I can't let go of responsibilities. It's because of him that our family are torn apart.

I figure, its not right to think that way, but who else can I blame?

I took 2 days off and have a long weekend ahead, just for myself. I wish to be alone. I wish to go off somewhere without telling anyone, but I know the consequences of doing so, it will only result in unhappiness and complains from few parties.

I have been living my life for the past 28 years for everyone except myself. Why can't I rebel, for once? I guess its because I don't like confrontation and I don't like people around me to be unhappy. But what about me?

I do not know.

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