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Plans?

Sorry bloggie. I have not write for some time. I have lots to do and think these days. Although I do not know who will be reading you from time to time, I will not abandon you. At least not now.

After 2 days of JSV, feeling a lil bit relief. Review wasn't bad at all, but still, there's lots to work on. And its MSR next week!! Ahhhh!!!! No!!!!! More work to do over the weekend...

Waken up again this morning by customer. I dun mind being waken up every morning if she can commit 100k per month to us. Well, I would mine, but hey, its the edge that we have holding off our competitors. So, not a problem, at least for now.

Mixed feelings this morning. I think everything has to come to an end. Even life. The question that pops up in mind is, when? Or should I stop it intentionally? If you are happy doing or having something, would you let it go eventually for the benefit of others? Or should I be selfish? I am confused at times and I wonder why do I think so much? Is it because I like to be in control of my life? Or I think I am just a giver in nature?

Lots have happens over the couple of months, both in personal life and work. I wonder how much longer can I hold on to sanity. Is this life all about? Where am I heading to? What's next in life that I need to work on for? Exactly 1 more month to my Birthday. Both Kev and Irfan will be away at that time. No celebration this year and no. 30 seems to be closer than before. Yeah, age is not a problem, everyone says that. But it marks a stage of life where normal people thinks about settling down and having families. Couples would plan for housing loan, calculating salaries from both sides, getting a good car, plan for child education...

What is life all about anyway?

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