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累与泪

这是我第一次用中文写部落格。

最近想了好多事情。好想去爱一个人,却没有勇气了。他说,他需要自由,我却没办法接受。我对他是一厢情愿,他则到处留情。你若是问我为什么我还是那么执着,我想,爱是没办法理解的

他对我的关心,和对他身边的红颜知己没什么不同。他说他喜欢我,也喜欢其他人。

好几次,我提出做个了断。他却不停地挽留我。说他喜欢我,不想我们之间有座墙。而我,再次地相信他。或许,有一天, 他会认定我就是他最好的选择。现在想着,我这个人真的那么天真吗?

爱一个人是那么的痛苦吗?难道他不理解我的真心吗?

我哭了,他说我太敏感。
我生气,他说我无理取闹。

好辛苦啊。。。我到底是怎么样了?那么没自信吗?难道世界没其他男人了吗?为什么还要委屈自己,爱着一个不想爱我的人呢?他说,我应该出去认识其他人。也许我会遇见一个更好的。而我却顽固地守着他。心里流着血,眼里也一直不断地流着泪。

我每天祈祷,祈求我有勇气放下这段还没开始的感情。

我好累好累。。神啊,你听到了我的祈祷吗?

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