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Dad, I forgave you for leaving us. Humans make mistakes, you made mistakes, so do I.

We had the longest, and most honest talk in years. You teared when I described the struggle mum faced when you decided to run away from home. I am glad that you realized tat you did wrong in the past. And how happy I was when you said you are going to change from now onwards.

I ony have two requests, which is for you to spend time with granny and Paul. The two people you ignored for all these years and heavily impacted from this chaos. Mum moved on, Leonard and I are mature enough to understand your situation. And Kenny, albeit the fact he had a hard time with this whole situation, he still manage to grow up to be fine young man.

But granny is old, and you might not have much time to spend with her. She cries everytime she talks about you, and i felt its time for you to repay her for all the sacrifices she made for you. For Paul, he barely knows you. He became very passive and quiet, he doesn't talk much all these years. When I find out that he cried during one of his music class, I felt pity for him. He couldn't embrace the chaos that has surround him all this while. He feels angry, but he doesn't dare to show it to anyone. He really needs you to be in his life.

I prayed for you to be well and healthy again. And you will keep the promises you made today. It's never too late to undo your wrong doings. I will be here for you if you need me.

Praise the Lord, for answering my prayers. Amen.

Thanks Dad for the life you gave to me.

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The Story Teller said…
Hey Shar,

I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I hope he's doing fine and will be able to get through this.

I'm happy that the Lord answered your prayers, it's yet another sign that He is so real in our lives. Continue to trust in Him :)

I hope everything will be fine for you too, and give yourself a break k? You need to be happy too u know?

I'm starting a new job soon, in Nov, so kinda stepping into another phase too. :)

Having challenges with brother - the usual, but I hope everything will be okay soon for me too.

Please take care, and I know I haven't been the best of friend, but I'm always here if you ever need me - for anything at all or even for nothing at all.

Hugs
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