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ICU - 2nd Day

Today is the 2nd day dad is in ICU. Things has not been that well to be exact. As much as I wish to be strong, i cried my heart out yesterday. It is as if the wole world crumbles down.

On Sunday, I was still talking to him, he was happy to inform me that doctors said he is responding well to the chemotherapy. I felt slight relief, at least he will survive from this ordeal. I was confident on that day.

Yesterday afternoon, I received a call from the hospital. He had difficulty breathing and was unconscious. When I reached hospital, all I can see was doctors, rushing in and out from the room, trying to stabilize him. Tubes, machines, blood everywhere. All we can do was standing outside the room watching. I couldn't cry, not even a drop of tears. I feel helpless.

Today, he was at least stable. But the doctor informed us that he cannot go through anothet chemotherapy. That is if he can pull himself out from this. I looked at him closely today. Cleaning his blood-stained lips, his face looked pale. His skin are dry ye fragile. As if i will bleed with one small scratch. Lying on the bed, almost lifeless, that is dad.

Dear Lord in heavenn,please hear my prayers. I pray o you to give him more time on this earth. At least, let us be a family again even just for few days. Thats all I ask fom You. Let him repent hos wrong doings and be part of the family again. Amen.

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