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I'm exhausted. I don't feel like teaching today, but to be honest, knowing myself, I won't allow that to happen.

Sometimes I wondered, things that I am doing now, is it for the benefit of others? Or just because I wanted to feel good about it? It's a fine line, and I am not sure which side of the line I am standing on.

There are many things going on in my mind. Trying to figure out what should I do, what can I do, how can do these stuffs. There are times, I just felt that everyone wanted a piece of me. Do they feel grateful for every "yes" that I say to them? Or are they taking for granted for these "yes"es?

Again, I don't know. 

I am tired, but I keep running. I am exhausted, but I keep doing what I need to do. I am supposed to learn how to say "no" this year. But I have failed miserably for all I know. 

Anyway, time to teach.. 

Thank You God, for giving me this strength to go on every day. I pray for wisdom and courage to say "no" for once. I know You are listening to my ranting and complains, and the time will come for me to relax and rest. But the time is not here yet. Thank You for Your provision and blessings into my life. Amen.

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