Lights on Me

1) Your own brother said that you nag too much. Worse, your mum tells you that. And the king of all, your granny stopped nagging cause you're the better 'nagger' at home. 2) You prefer staying at home with your pillow rather than partying outside, or have an outing with friends.. I missed my pillow.. 3) TV programs these days seemed to be too violent, too complicated to understand, or too dark (literally) to be seen. 4) You're are way too concern bout the food you're consuming. Low fat...Hi fiber..Non-Fried... Low Cholestrol...or even better, no cholestrol at all.. You get what i meant. 5) Almost all your sentence begins with... "When I was in your age..." I did that almost everyday, handling kids at school and my own brothers! 6) You don't have a clue what's TiVo's or MP4 are... 7) You start sharing some of your wardrobes with your mum. AHHHHH!!!! 8) You start to miss your OLD schooldays' .. 9) It takes you longer to count something more...

A usual trip down to Seremban for my violin classes. Apparently, i still can't believe that I'm actually teaching violin nowadays. Supposed to have a new student coming in, but the 4 year old kid went for a singing competition and he was absent. To be honest, I'm amazed with some of my students, who displays such a talent in a very young age. At that age like them, I still don't understand why i have to learn music. Leave alone my violin lessons, as it was really a nightmare. I had teachers who concentrate more on keeping their hair tidy, and managing split ends than on teaching, and of course, I wouldn't forget the teacher who constantly boasted about his skills and his achievement. Surely, I would be be honest enough to admit my unwillingness to learn the instrument as a child, coz it was much tougher than the piano lessons I had throughout my life. It wasn't until later in my violin lessons, that i finally grasped and understand the beauty of it. Then off t...

Just went up to Doulos wiv Mum, Paul and Kenny. The last time I went was around 15 year ago. But there weren't Mum, Paul or even Kenny. I was there with Leonard and Dad. Suddenly i missed the old times so much where Dad and Leonard is still around at home. Things have changed alot. Same ship, different companions, different feelings. Life has come a long way for me, and perhaps for everyone that i know. If only I can turned back time, I'll appreciate more all the times that we had, late night's chat, joking around and poking fun at each other . But again, that's human being's weakness--always take things for granted. You wouldn't realized how important a person in your life, or how fortunate to have experienced some things, until you lose it all. I've decided to go abroad. All the tests, the procedures, everything... sigh... it's a long way to go. I'm currently waiting excitingly for the coming school holidays, because that's the only time that I...

Life is about choices.. Choices about how you want to run your life, what principles that you hold, what career you are heading in the future. Perhaps, now is a time where tough choices are ahead for me. Both family and friends have their own saying about what is the best. So, what's the best for me? I'm easily influenced by persuasion, and i usually give in easily. Sometimes ever so reluctantly, i followed what people asked or wanted me to do. I do not have much consideration of what I want in the first place. For this, I've been wasting more than a year now, which could easily turned out to be an interesting year for me to proceed to my dreams. A year of frustration, a year of uncertainty, and a year of lost chances. The 6 months in Melaka wasn't the best in my life. Some might say it's just a short period in your life. But in reality, I've lost alot of chances in this 6 months time. Work, study, career, even my relationship. Every person in my life has their ...

I was really surprised how young kids at the age of 7 & 8 lied and giving excuses for not handing in their homework. 3 kids today gave me unreasonable and of course unbelievable excuses. Case 1: "I have the book. But when i went to buy drinks in the canteen, someone took my book from my bag. After I go back home to finished the exercise, I couldn't find it.... even my Mum couldn't find it. Really!" "emm hm....?" "But just now, when i reached the class, I found the book in my bag. I dunno how it get there, but i'm really sure that it wasn't there yesterday. Really.." "so...?" "Erm... that's why i didn't finish the exercise, cause it's just not enough time for me to finished it." she said with the sweetest smile u can ever imagine. " Can I call your mum now?" In the shortest moment, the cute little girl burst into tears. There goes the far from perfect lie.. Case 2: " My mum brought me to...

Given the person in me a few months back this question, "What do you want for your birthday?", my answer might sounded something like this, "It's OK. You don't have to give me anything." Yeah rite.. I'm always conscious of not putting others into trouble to get me something and not receiving from anyone, if I wasn't desperate enough. Perhaps I'm more comfortable as a giver, rather a receiver. There's a tiny voice in me that keep reminding me that being a giver is better than receiving. Maybe it's the moral values that I'm holding on so rigidly all these years. Jules and Sandz told me before that I needed to love myself more. I couldn't understand that actually. I felt happy when people who received from me were happy. It's the act of giving that made me feel happy, or honestly, it made me felt that I'm a good person. And I never think that I deserved anything from anyone. A really troubling side of me huh? Today, when I w...

I'm exhausted, I lost my voice and I'm watching the England vs. Ecuador match with an uninterested mind. Today's was a super busy day, not only for me, but the whole school. Enthusiastic parents have been buzzing around in school as early as 7 a.m. selling food and drinks that they donated for the fundraising event. The funds are for the new buildings to cater for the increasing students' population. Every teacher is entitled to a stall to sell some goods. What do I sell? Spring rolls, fish balls and sausages… all deep fried, unhealthy yet tempting to the mouth of little children. That's right, the ultimate Malaysian children's favorite, and as expected; everything was sold off in a surprisingly fast time… God, I felt proud of myself and the parents who were helping at the stall. Even though, I felt a pinch of guilt in selling unhealthy food It has been 2 weeks since I started teaching. While it’s not a new thing to me, as I have been teaching on and off for t...