It's funny how it all started. We hated, or perhaps in a better definition, "dislike" each other when we first met. Both of my closest friends were someone that wasn't pleasant having around at first. Probably i'm the one who need to be blamed for not trusting people easily.
This particular friend of mine was my schoolmate* in uni (*noted that school here refers to School of Psychology and Social Work, not secondary school/high school/primary school). We heard about each other, we disliked each other, but in a very unexpected way, we became friends after attending a same class in our 2nd year! (God have it's own reason i guess..)
She was not in my course by she took on of the subject in my course as an elective. And after the IVAC (Inter-University AIDS Conference) 2004, we became even closer. Closer than any of my coursemates whom I've accustomed with their presence in my uni life for 2 years.
I was really skeptical at first. How can a person trust someone so easily? We didn't talk much but she trusted me whole heartedly. She told me stuffs about her that if I were her, i wouldn't even dare to tell a soul. Jeez..We didn't even clique!
She smokes, I don't. I actually hate people who smokes! Still remember the time how I made you stop smoking?? Hahaha..that was really funny. Of course, I failed in my mission!
She loves clubbing, I never really enjoy dancing.
She's carefree with her life, I'm a damn serious or perhaps the most serious person in the whole world!! But through her influence, we managed to cheat 30-minutes from a really boring class. We even spent our whole class reading Dan Brown's book at the back of the class. It's definitely un-like me! But, what the heck, that was the worst class i ever attended! (hope you still remember that adventure)
And who can ever forget those nights when you popped up in my room unexpectedly? (She loves my room because that's the only place she can smoke in the campus.) And i was constantly afraid that the guards or my other students will notice her.
And yep, she can be very very annoying at times! Erm.. Annoying but definitely cute. (Hah! You always insisted that you're cute. Yeah rite, with those sad puppy eyes..)
I've learned alot from her, more than she could ever understand. To be accepting and not judgemental. This was perhaps one of the most important lessons in my life. I like her as she never even once wanting me to change. I change because I learned, and not because you told me too. This is a fact which some of my friends will never understand. And it isn't fair to you for being hated like this. Something that i felt guilty for especially when we stayed together during our practical training.
You've changed since you started working in KL. I sensed it even before I came back here. Is it the environment that made you change? It must be. You're no more the "kiddier" one between us (Damn, I couldn't use that word anymore!). You have matured through the hardships of life and all those relationships. Deep down, I hoped that somehow, I'll be able to see some traces of playfulness and carefreeness (is there such a word??) in you. I guess I'm missing our old times back in uni, I'm missing the old you.
It's really weird how difficult it is for me to write something about you. Lots of memories and thoughts, but to put it in words, it's just so difficult. Hopefully there will be another blog that I can write about you.
Finally, I really dunno what to say right now. My brain is just a blank. I just hope that things will get better for you in your life. Hope that our friendship remains strong and lasts forever. No matter where or when or what happened to you, I hope that I can be there for you. And I'll always remember you as my funny friend who teach me to be 'bad' and breaking rules and not to bother about what people think of me. I'll always remember that.
A blog dedication to Sandz..
This particular friend of mine was my schoolmate* in uni (*noted that school here refers to School of Psychology and Social Work, not secondary school/high school/primary school). We heard about each other, we disliked each other, but in a very unexpected way, we became friends after attending a same class in our 2nd year! (God have it's own reason i guess..)
She was not in my course by she took on of the subject in my course as an elective. And after the IVAC (Inter-University AIDS Conference) 2004, we became even closer. Closer than any of my coursemates whom I've accustomed with their presence in my uni life for 2 years.
I was really skeptical at first. How can a person trust someone so easily? We didn't talk much but she trusted me whole heartedly. She told me stuffs about her that if I were her, i wouldn't even dare to tell a soul. Jeez..We didn't even clique!
She smokes, I don't. I actually hate people who smokes! Still remember the time how I made you stop smoking?? Hahaha..that was really funny. Of course, I failed in my mission!
She loves clubbing, I never really enjoy dancing.
She's carefree with her life, I'm a damn serious or perhaps the most serious person in the whole world!! But through her influence, we managed to cheat 30-minutes from a really boring class. We even spent our whole class reading Dan Brown's book at the back of the class. It's definitely un-like me! But, what the heck, that was the worst class i ever attended! (hope you still remember that adventure)
And who can ever forget those nights when you popped up in my room unexpectedly? (She loves my room because that's the only place she can smoke in the campus.) And i was constantly afraid that the guards or my other students will notice her.
And yep, she can be very very annoying at times! Erm.. Annoying but definitely cute. (Hah! You always insisted that you're cute. Yeah rite, with those sad puppy eyes..)
I've learned alot from her, more than she could ever understand. To be accepting and not judgemental. This was perhaps one of the most important lessons in my life. I like her as she never even once wanting me to change. I change because I learned, and not because you told me too. This is a fact which some of my friends will never understand. And it isn't fair to you for being hated like this. Something that i felt guilty for especially when we stayed together during our practical training.
You've changed since you started working in KL. I sensed it even before I came back here. Is it the environment that made you change? It must be. You're no more the "kiddier" one between us (Damn, I couldn't use that word anymore!). You have matured through the hardships of life and all those relationships. Deep down, I hoped that somehow, I'll be able to see some traces of playfulness and carefreeness (is there such a word??) in you. I guess I'm missing our old times back in uni, I'm missing the old you.
It's really weird how difficult it is for me to write something about you. Lots of memories and thoughts, but to put it in words, it's just so difficult. Hopefully there will be another blog that I can write about you.
Finally, I really dunno what to say right now. My brain is just a blank. I just hope that things will get better for you in your life. Hope that our friendship remains strong and lasts forever. No matter where or when or what happened to you, I hope that I can be there for you. And I'll always remember you as my funny friend who teach me to be 'bad' and breaking rules and not to bother about what people think of me. I'll always remember that.
A blog dedication to Sandz..
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