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Hurt

Wow, my emotions went up and down like a roller coaster. And it wasn't even 'that time of the month'..

Why does caring and loving someone is so painful? Knowing that someone you cared did hurtful things to themselves, it hurts ourselves even more. It hurts so much coz i can't do anything to help.

It's almost 3 months now. We confessed to each other that it's hard to let go. Sometimes, we even wished that our status never change and we're back together. But, is it possible? Is it realistic to chose the same path again without solving the problems?

Just when I thought I'm starting a new life, it turns out to be the other way.. I just hope that he'll be ok. Safe, healthy and happy. That's all i wish for him..

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