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Growing up, finally. When we all thought it's impossible for him to be good, he became one. Kenny called today. He called me. He was asking how was I doing? How's everyone at home? I thought at that moment, never did I called him after he went to uni. Was I too absorbed with my own life, that I literally forgotten about him? It was embarrassing, to call myself as an elder sister.

People do change when the environment changed. That's what we all going through. I got another job offer today, but the pay was too low compared to the first job. But somehow, I am happy to know that I'm offered the position. It proved that my capabilities has somehow convinced employers to hire me. B said thank God that the other company called me first, or i would have lost the better offer. Perhaps so, I have been blessed by GOD all this while.

I brought gran to the clinic today. BP was quite low. Doc knows that she has been worrying again. She tried to hide it from him, but well, she doesn't know that he already knows what's happening. Somehow, i felt that doc should know bout it and rather, forgave her for her eccentricity. After clinic, she wanted to have her hair cut. Waited for 1 hour before her turn. Watching her going up the stairs in such difficulty, really saddened me. Few times, that we have to stopped walking because her legs couldn't take it. Does dad understand what is she going through? I wonder..

When we reached home, I felt mum's uneasiness. She was grumpy again. Dare not to ask or anything, but rather, i felt sad for everything that has happened. Leonard told me yesterday, our lives doesn't revolve around him, and so is his. We have to learn to let go rather than forcing him to come back. Leonard believes that he will eventually return, but honestly, to me, it doesn't make any difference. I've got used to it, for not having him in the family. Guess we'll just wait and see what will happen next...

I have to be happy with my life. That's the only way to go. Living the present, loving my life, and people who loves me. This is what I've been waiting for in months. I have to move on and start a new chapter in my life. With B, with new job, new place to stay, I can only hope for the best in life.

Time to get a passport and travel around too.

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