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Had dinner in Sushi Tei @ Tropicana with Zura today.. Really full now, with pieces of sushi still swimming in my stomach. Sometimes, the best way to end a day is to hangout with friends, especially those good one who accepts you no matter what you did.

New month, new target, life going to change very soon. Maybe I wont have time for anything else. Soon, my mind will be on my work all the time. Nothing else to think about.

Current changes that happens in my life, is it for good or bad, I really dunno.

People said I smile a lot, said that I looked much happier these days. Looking lots more attractive and all the good things that they usually said to impress. Yes, I changed how I look like. But am I really happy? Maybe yes, maybe no.

My mind is thinking a lot of stuffs, things that make me feeling depressed and things that make me feeling good. Maybe I am having bipolar disorder. It's really dangerous, because I do not know whether I'm having psychological problem or whether this is all natural. This is really dangerous, as I won't know when is the day I lose my sanity and the world doesn't mean anything to me.

But what the heck, enjoy what I have now. Even if i need to spend money to make myself happy. Maybe go on a vacation alone, in a place full of strangers. Meeting with people that doesn't give a damn bout you or your past. Learning bout the life and culture of others.. And yes, that's the ultimate life that I want.

So, what am I waiting for? I will start to do things differently from now onwards. Living my life.

Forget all those unhappy things in life. Forget all the people that has been trouble my mind so long.


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