Lights on Me

-by Alicia Keys (from the album "As I Am") If I had no more time No more time left to be here Would you cherish what we had? Was I everything that you were looking for If I couldn’t feel your touch And no longer were you with me I’d be wishing you were here To be everything that I’ve been looking for I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed So every time you hold me Hold me like this is the last time Every time you kiss me Kiss me like you’ll never see me again Every time you touch me Touch me like this is the last time Promise that you’ll love me Love me like you’ll never see me again How many really know wh...

Know about the pink elephant story? Try not to imagine a Pink Elephant. What do u imagine now? It's a pink elephant no doubt. Apparently our brain is quite straightforward. The rational is, the more you try to avoid thinking about something, the more you would think about it. There are certain things that I try to block out from my brain. A person, smoking, and being depressive about work. Three things that I'm trying to forget, and the same three that keep on popping up. Wonder how to forget about things? Our memory is really not a merciful one. The happiness in life that we tried to remember all the time, it can easily be forgotten. Life love to play jokes on us, or at least, on me. Life changes so much for the past 2 weeks. In these past 2 weeks, I suddenly realized how much my mum has grow old. Seeing the wrinkle on her face, I can't remember when did it all happen in the first place. I couldn't find a trace of image when her face are still line less. I tried really...

How does it feel when you fell for someone, and that someone told you that he had a new gf? It sucks. As a friend, I'm still trying to act cool, as if nothing happens. It hurts damn bad actually. But, as a friend, I should be happy for him isn't it? The only problem is I'm not a saint. I'm a human being, and for worse, a female species of Homo sapiens . THAT is the main problem. I'm accepting, but being hurt badly, I don't know how to keep on going and be a friend. Hang out together? Introduce her to me? My heart is really reluctant, but my pride make the stupidest decision in my life. I said 'OK'. Trying to be nice isn't everything, I discover. While I was waiting for his reply on the phone, he was having some fun with his new gf. I would be a big fat liar to say that I'm ok with everything. I have to be, to make sure he's not feeling awkward to me. And I have to meet her as well, as a request from him. As a proof we are still 'friends...

My name written in the sand somewhere in Africa.

Today was another typical day of working. With a little different, I wore an old t-shirt to the office. Well, everyone was really surprised, cause it's not even weekend. I figure that I need to save my office outfits for some other occasion rather than spoiling it during my work in the warehouse. I'm generally out of black office wear that can withstand the heat, sweat and dirt that i have to mingle every day. My ego pushed me to the edge today. In my mind, I have a bachelor degree. I'm educated, i have a strong education background, with good academic records. In fact, I am the best student in my faculty. And yet, why on earth am I packing goods in the warehouse?? God knows why. For the past 2 months or so, I have been involved deeply in the whole operation. That is based on an agreement between my manager and I, which requires us to 'fix' the problem in the operation. We did. The delivery system was improved. The waiting time for deliveries has been cut down from ...

6 minutes to midnight, and I'm already dreading going back to work. Couldn't remember since when I felt that reluctant to work. Funny thing is, I don't show any exhaustion and unwillingness once I'm at office. In fact, our director were quite please with my performance. So why do I feel so bad then? Really got no idea. It's really time to move on i think. I got job offers from Sylvia's friends. 2 jobs to be exact. Somehow, I'm not that excited, thinking that I don't want to get another favor from her. Wanted to try to get another job on my own. I lost my previous copy of resume, and to the point when I'm starting to rewrite it...I felt a moment of blankness.. sadly the moment was really a long one.. Well, is it time to move? Almost a year now, just another month and that's it. 1 damn year.

Charles Dicken's London in his writing, has always been sad, dramatic and depressive. Such a gloomy place I would say. That's how Sweeney Todd was pushed to the edge, ending his miserable life with such a cold and cruel murder. Who to say he is wrong? Or right? When life is unfair, it haunts you even in your sleep. You might be more hardworking than others, but yet, you might not be successful. You might put in most effort in your work, draining yourself to to the edge of insanity, but yet, you might not get the recognition from your superior. You might been the one most caring and most willing to be there for him/her, but you might not be the one he/she loves. You might help out the most in your family, but you might not be loved and respected like your brother. He/she might be the nicest person to you, caring and loving, and understanding, but he/she might not be the one for you. The world is never fair, most will agree. I agreed too. A friend said to me that Valentine's ...