Lights on Me

With recent and current uproars about price hikes in eletricity, petrol and almost everything else (even my nasi lemak got up by 20 cents!), the government better do something to regain the trust and support from Malaysians. If the current trend keeps going, Pak Lah and his cabinet ministers will definitely have a tough time ahead. If the national election is in the near future, the chances of BN losing their seats in large numbers will be almost certain. What happened to today's Malaysia? With the recent blunder of Datuk Said's "close one eye" issue, people are beginning to lose their faith in the present government. Many starts questioning about the corruption phenomenon in Malaysia. How bad it is? Why do we even have ACA if they are not doing their jobs? One could only wonder how effective is Pak Lah's policy against corruption. Our newspapers have been infested by many governmental blunders and comedies. It's quite amusing to see that some of our YBs are...

It's 6 o'clock now. As usual, sitting in front of the PC, in office. Had a bad arm since yesterday, probably for lifting some heavy files few days back.. 6 more days to go and well, lots of things in my mind. A round-up of some events today: American Idol 5: as expected, Taylor Hicks is the winner. Some said he's not talented enough to deserve it, but seriously, he standouts from the start of the season. He left an impact on everyone that follows the show, and I've only seen him thrice. Perhaps, it's unexpected after the favourites were voted out.. Many felt unjusticed for Chris Doughtry, but hey, it's ur decision, ain't it? And now, the more important thing is what does Taylor Hicks got for his "Soul Patrol" (his ultimate fans)? That, we'll have to see. FIFA World Cup 2006 : Friendly matches results: Ecuador vs. Colombia: 1-1 Australia vs. Greece: 1-0 (half-time), interesting match to watch. Let's see how does Australia fare in interna...

What a boring day.. It seems that my mind is not working again. Nadia went for conference in Beijing for a week, and I have the room for myself, alone. Which is something supposedly fine by me, but apparently not. Been cracking my head whole day doing write ups but the ideas are just stuck in there, regulating between the neurons without any result. Dr M went for entrepreneurial workshop in Tanjung Keling. This means I've gotta walk to and fro for work for the next three days. Perhaps it's a good time to burn some calories.. Some breakup stories from friends again.. Starting from my own breakup, there has been a number of them facing the same fate. Hah, maybe it's contagious, just like the bird flu virus. Oh.. bout bird flu, Indonesia just recorded 2 cases of human to human transmission of birdflu. Seems like the 'little fellow' has mutated again. Evil little things.. Should be more careful nowadays. Yep, back to the breakup story. Another friend has regain her ...

(The Star, 22 May 2006) KUALA LUMPUR: Twenty-one per cent of Malaysians have mental disorders as a result of the pressures of life, and the figure is rising. According to clinical psychologist Mahadir Mohamad, based on a survey from 1995 to 2000, depression topped the list, followed by psychosis, and drug and alcohol-related mental disorders. “Based on year 2000 statistics by the Public Health Institute (Disease Burden Department), 108,324 people suffered depression. Those between the ages of 30 and 59 were most affected by this disease, and the figure is rising by the year,” he said at a forum on recognising mental health and illness organised by KL Clinical Psychology Counselling Centre here yesterday. He said anxiety was also a form of mental disorder, with 33,714 people diagnosed with it. Mahadir, who works for the Health Ministry, said 24,647 people were diagnosed with psychosis. Alcohol and drug-related mental disorders accounted for 21,441 and 27,522 people respectively. “Many a...

Yes, The Da Vinci Code. I've watched it yesterday. That 's the second movie i watched in the cinema this year. It was full house and the experience of sitting at the front row for 2 1/2 hour was scary! Nevertheless, it helped to sooth my mood lately, having the chance to get out from my house and work for a change.. Ok, truthfully speaking, the movie doesn't impressed me. I couldn't feel the excitement and the thrill of hunting for the Holy Grail and breaking codes. Tom Hanks wasn't at his best, more likely, he's a little bit lame as Robert Langdon. In the book, Robert Langdon was an expert, confident, charming and charismatic in his own way. The one in the movie? He's very self conscious, most of the time. You can even tell that he's not comfortable being himself. What a disappointment from Hanks! Was having such a high hope of him being the star in the movie! And who can believed that Sophie Neveu is the heir of Jesus and Mary Magdalene? She's not ...

Sigh...some interruptions with my weekend plans. Well, let's just hope next week will be better. 6 months here. 6 months studying and researching on two topics. "Person-environment congruence" and "locus of control". Hah! Don't have to put on the "what the hell it is?!" look on your face. I've been through that phase. Nah..you don't have to know what it is. Just some terms that I've been using for the past 6 months. That's how my life 's going to be, if I want to be a researcher cum lecturer one day. Studying and researching till the end of my life.... Some may think that this is bored, but strangely, I didn't feel that way. Knowing something new, researching on something, it's actually exciting when you have finished writing a paper. I have come a long way to actually go back. This is my life. This is the path I'm seeing. I have left out music from my career, which might have dissapointed someone. I don't know...

Today.. is another sad day for me. They just disabled "e-messenger", which ended my pleasure of keeping in touch with friends lately. Sigh.. exactly 14 more days, and I'll be out. Just have to be patient. Had a long talk with my boss. Many things that we've talked through and I appreciate his acceptance over my rather harsh comment. We're more like friends now, rather than him being my boss, or me being his subordinate. Frankly, it's been a long 5 1/2 half months. Unhappy i may seem, but i do learn alot while working here. Strangely, i think i might even missed this place..

Incredibly lonely today. .. I realized that I've not fit in after all these months. No one knows i'm leaving, apart from my colleagues whom I shared room with, my boss, and my housemate. It's a cold cold world, or was it me who's having problem? In my current state, I really don't give a damn. I've seen too much, heard too much, know too much to love this place. I just want to go home. Home, another place that made me felt difficult so often. Some things are meant to be left out in our lives. But how can we just ignore it if it keeps on hitting our face? I don't know who to talk to, and as i listen more and more, I felt exhausted. As though I'm carrying the Earth on my shoulder. The burden is slowly killing me, but no one knows . Everybody thinks I'm strong enough for this. But, am I? Am I brave enough to face it? Am I coward enough to run away from it? I'm neither. Life is just so confusing.. I don't know how to live it sometimes. But then, ...

I've watched 2 incredible movies last night, straight. Which currently left me in a certain puzzled mood. 2 different movies, 2 alarming issues, Both, incredibly touching, And thought provoking.. A person can only accodomate this much.. I'll need some time before i can write something about them. My mind haven't stop thinking since last night. Craving for alot of answers again... Oh.. by the way, the 2 movies i was watching are "Brokeback Mountain" and "Munich". And 30 more days to go..