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No One Knows

Incredibly lonely today. ..

I realized that I've not fit in after all these months. No one knows i'm leaving, apart from my colleagues whom I shared room with, my boss, and my housemate. It's a cold cold world, or was it me who's having problem? In my current state, I really don't give a damn. I've seen too much, heard too much, know too much to love this place. I just want to go home.

Home, another place that made me felt difficult so often. Some things are meant to be left out in our lives. But how can we just ignore it if it keeps on hitting our face? I don't know who to talk to, and as i listen more and more, I felt exhausted. As though I'm carrying the Earth on my shoulder. The burden is slowly killing me, but no one knows. Everybody thinks I'm strong enough for this. But, am I? Am I brave enough to face it? Am I coward enough to run away from it? I'm neither.

Life is just so confusing.. I don't know how to live it sometimes. But then, no one knows too..

22 days..

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