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The path ahead...

Sigh...some interruptions with my weekend plans. Well, let's just hope next week will be better.

6 months here. 6 months studying and researching on two topics. "Person-environment congruence" and "locus of control". Hah! Don't have to put on the "what the hell it is?!" look on your face. I've been through that phase. Nah..you don't have to know what it is. Just some terms that I've been using for the past 6 months.

That's how my life 's going to be, if I want to be a researcher cum lecturer one day. Studying and researching till the end of my life.... Some may think that this is bored, but strangely, I didn't feel that way. Knowing something new, researching on something, it's actually exciting when you have finished writing a paper. I have come a long way to actually go back. This is my life. This is the path I'm seeing.

I have left out music from my career, which might have dissapointed someone. I don't know what happened but everything has changed. The passion is just not there. How can i even grasp something that I can't feel? I don't even have the confidence to perform anymore..

It's still a long journey to go. After this, I need to pursue my study again. I know that it's kind of silly to some people, to waste another 2 yrs for Masters & another 4 for PhD. Hah! I'll be old by then! Sigh.. But I'm pretty sure this is what I want. I know I could go far in this. I just need some patience, from myself, and from people around me. Please be patient with me. That's all I need for now. To let me walk on the path I chose.

Countown =13 days..

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deaflisteners said…
After I turned down your offer, I actually felt bad. I felt that I've disappoint you and lost something important in my life- the passion of music. I really don't understand how i ended up like this..
12:08 PM
deaflisteners said…
Thnx for understanding. It's always great to hv u as a brother.
3:44 PM
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