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Lonely

11 more days to go. Starting next month, I will be living a different life. Working life it is.


Wonder why I blog so much these days. Not some world changing material, but I just find that there are lots of things that I couldn't share it out. Basically, not many people that I can speak to. Now, with me going out from the office, going out to meet customers on my own, it will be tough. I think I will feel much more lonelier than what I am now.

Mark asked me, whether I want to reconsider. I know he's joking, but I'm actually feel reluctant to go. Many reasons that contributes to it. But well, I have sign the contract. No turning back. Lonely or not, life still goes on.

Things changed so much for the past few months. Emotionally, I'm not as stable as I think I am. I just chose to hide what I think, or what I feel. In fact I don't feel anything in particular. It's just numb. Just smile. Let others around me be happy, and not feeling bad because of me. I know it's not healthy, but that's all I can do.

I seriously want to change, but then, human, being human, being the female population of the species, life ain't easy. As long as I don't get into insanity, I should be happy. I have not gone back to Klang for weeks, kinda miss mum, Paul, and yes, Gran. Will make a point to go back this week. Even just for an afternoon. Family is still the best people to be around with. Home, is still the best place to stay at.

Comments

mbata said…
Hey i think im the past few month you have also changed for the better. You look more prettier, you care for yourself more and no need to be lonely. I believe you'll do well in your new role and of course you can talk to me when it gets lonely.
1:04 PM
deaflisteners said…
Yeah, change is good. I guess I'm just enjoying my life at the moment, being busy and progressing in career. We all have much more to explore in life and being lonely i guess, is part of life.

But hey, thanks for being there for me when life is not that easy. :)
11:22 PM
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