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And so...it ended.

I made a major decision today. A really tough decision to make. It took me a great courage to do it and i promise myself that i won't regret it. Honestly, I do not know whether it's right or wrong, but i guess it'll be better for both of us. Exactly 7 months from the day it started, it ended today. So long for our dreams to reach the magical thousand.

Heartbreaking as it may be, at least it's a new start. Hopefully from now on, we don't have to carry this burden anymore. I lifted mine today, and i hope u felt relief too after all this while.

U haven't answer me but i guess i've already made up my mind. A fact that i really want you to understand, my feelings haven't change a bit. Things just didn't workout the way we wanted it.

From today on, I'll need to learn to walk alone and start a new life without u. U're a strong person, and i know that u'll live on a good life, even without me. I'm sorry if i've hurt you in the past 7 months. I'm sorry for all the troubles that u went through for me. I'm sorry for not able to be there for you when you needed it. I'm sorry.

Final words for you,
I hope that you'll live happily from now on...
I hope that you'll find your dreams someday...
I hope that you accept my decision in this...
I hope that we'll keep the promise we made on the 1st day...
No matter what happened, you're still a friend to me...

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