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Living Up to Expectations....and I'll Survive again..

"You'll survive", my boss told me. "You are always a strong person. If you're still the same person i know." He said again.

Yeah, that's how i portrayed myself.. I'm always the stronger one. Never panicked over any troubles that hit me in the face.

Always the 'cool' one when there's disaster..
(even my mum don't believe my reactions after the dog bit my finger..)
Always have solutions to everything.
Always the one people would turn to.
Always the one that people looked up to.
Always the one ............

Sometimes i even felt that my boss did actually looked up to me too.
Hah, what an ego prick myself!

Somehow, i felt lonely behind this 'strong' persona. The image that i portrayed is hurting myself, bit by bit. I can keep cool even when i'm talking about something that really hurts me. Not even a tear, just like what I did a while ago.

There goes again, my brain are thinking of a strategy to survive through the storm. Could this be it? Living up to people expectations? To be the one who is always stronger? Who never really scared of anything? Maybe that's the best way. That's what i have to do. That's the solution for all my problems.

Yeah, be strong. I'll survive, yet again..

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