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In reality...

9 days.. glad that i made through the 1st phase of the "21 Days Theory". Would really like to thank Kat for the companionship through out the week. Thanks for giving me the ride home yesterday too.

Wow...been really busy these past 2 days. Lot's of work to be done as the interviews gonna start by next week. Somewhat a good change to distract my mind about relationship. Nevertheless, i actually gave a deep thought about my job, my surroundings, everything that i have gained for the past 2 months ++... Being such an enthusiasts in the academic field, i found myself not enjoying the job as i thought i'll be. There's seem to be a gap between my expectations and the reality.

  • My expectations... people in the academic field are open minded about sharing informations and knowledge. In reality... no one cares about you, not even you co-researcher or anyone that you're working closely with. Believe me, NO ONE. U ask questions, u find answers. Credit to the team, u're left out in the rain.
  • My expectations... professional people really know their work as stated in their resume. Which in this case, they are lecturers a.k.a. academic researchers. In reality... They have the slightest idea of what they are doing. The minute problems occured, they went haywire and everything is your fault.
  • My expectations... Call me naive, but i really do think that i can learn something here adn get appreciated. In reality... you are supposed to be dumb and better be good in acting it out. Never be 'Mr/Ms Smartpants' or you'll be receiving hate-letters from anonymous.

Sigh...there goes my dream career. Hopefully it's just an eny, tiny, micro group of workers in this industry. Or else, it'll be a sad, sad reality to be faced by our future generations.

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